Unmasked

Never thought that we'd come this far, ever hoped that this would last.
Alas, all good things come to an end..

Moving on, and shofting to another blog. LJ simply sucks. Here goes the link:www.unmaskingkrist.blogspot.com
Help yourselves to it!

Enjoy, and miss me.

Toodles

It's sunday again. And I'm bumming around at home, taking a one day break away from the hustle and bustle of this city, cooping up in this warm bedroom of mine, snuggling up a little in this cool breezy weather.

Time check: 1534

A couple of hours to go, before a brand new week start. Let's backtrack a little. What I did over the weekends.

1) Work
2) Batam
3) BBQ with my mates
4) Shopping with mum, the dowager
5) Lazying around at home.

Alright, name it a fruitful week if you really must. Gosh I miss Batam, the beach ( though it wasn't that fantastic afteralll) I's reckoned we both did have hell loadsa fun there. Being our first time, behaving like country nooby bumpkins. To an island on our own visiting some of the most rural places around. (Those villages deep in the jungles) Let me tell ya, no joke. We all ought to learn to appreciate whatever we have right now. As it doesn necessary applies to others around as well.

We're planning on our next holiday in estimating 2 weeks time, hoping to recruit some other people to form a big bunch which would, hopefully be more fun. :) Otherwise, would be somewhere mid aug to early September. Destinations to be confirmed, but most prolly some island again where we'll get the same old thing-sun sand sea.

Okay, apart from that. Life back in SG. The same, and to be serious, I'm kind of missing the slow paced Indonesia where everyone leads a simple life, contented with whatever they have, willing to make do with whatever they're given. And maybe this is the spirit, that someone like me need to have in me. For me to change for the better?

Don't you think so?

Kristen

Holah!

Just a quickie. I'm back to Singapore. (and yes, HELL on monday.)  Had a nice trip overall. Sun, sand, sea.

I wished I could stay longer. Peektures to be up soon, if I get my laptop adaptor. Cos it broke on me. damn.

OK, just being random. Brain processing a little slow. Jet lag maybe?


Retreat to bed.

Toodles

Kristen

counting down.. 1 MORE DAY...

                                                                                                                                                                              to Batam.

Time check- 2259 hours. Guess what? I'm WIDE AWAKE.

Dread dragging my feet out of bed tomorrow, to an endless battle in the office, countering those morons out there. Fcuk it.  "It's late, Kristen. Go to bed" someone keeps reminding me. I know it myself, and not that I don't want to. But I can't.

The nostalgic feeling starts kickin' in. Memories flood my mind, waves of those  moments we shared I felt it once again. And the next thing I know, BAM. I'm back to reality.
I've smarten up I guess. I know when to snap myself down to earth as and when my mind goes floating away. Good or bad? I don't know. Hopefully, this keeps me going, for me to be aware of my surroundings, and be clear of my thoughts. Not for me to dwindle here and there... only to realise what foolish mistakes I've made.

Wake up Girl. It's gonna be a long long journey. And right now, I'm embarking on a road trip, to the next stop in my life. Stay tuned.

Toodles

Kristen

So here goes the above, peektures of Ricky's bdae celebration!! Hee, and pardon for the damn bright fuck faces of ours. Thats what you could expect, with a @$%^# camera. Argh. Just wait till I get my hands on a real good one. (heh heh)

Apart from that, a VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Ricky, and may this year be a prosperous year for him, for him to live everyday, flashing the sweetest smile he has.

It's another typical sunday and I'm bumming around at home. Any plans? Lemme know!

Sexy sunday, and catch me around!

Toodles

Kristen

It's sunday.
Damn boring, cooped up at home,bumming around. Woke up at noon, only to see black faces looming around.
How great can it be? Duh... Work's on tomorrow. More committments, more work, more responsibilites.

Gosh.. I feel so shagged.

Help!!

 

 

Kristen

 

 

 

Explanations-something I'm sick and tired of all these days. After so many times, of explanations, elaboration and still, here we are, back at square one.

Tell me if you're deaf, acting dumb, plain ignorant or trying to make a fool outta yourself? If you are, then congrats, you've succeed in achieving your target. Fuck these shit. I'm long sick and tired of all these rubbish, twirling around in a merry-go-round only to realise nothing has been solved all this while.

Why waste each others time when things're not meant to be? Why bother, like seriously/. Grab a life dude, you seriously ought to. Stop being a willie. You know this doesn't work on me.

I loathe liars, and detest betrayers, and yes you you you and YOU. Why make us suffer with you gloating over the misery of others?? Saddist, oh well, I can't be bothered seriously.

As of now, let me make things clear- just FUCK OFF and leave me alone. I don't wish to have anything to do with you.

With utmost appreciation
Kristen.

Weekend's packed like sardines. And how I need some personal space for myself.

Counting down to Batam trip, 18 more days..

Sun tanning, wake-boarding, here I come. Woo hoo!!

PS: I miss the dance floor, with my liquors.


Just being random, as usual.

Toodles

Kristen

In a room, full of lit scented candles, with a warm orange lamp on the desk, I'm snuggling up in bed, reading my own book, feeling blessed to be given a moment of peace, silence and serenity.

It's been awhile since I last felt this way. So warm and cosy. There used to be this emptiness within me, eating me inside out, tossing and twirling me in within. That particular feeling sucks, it feels as though there is a huge gap/ disco-ordination between my heart and brain. You know when your movements doesn't seem to synchronise really well with your brain, thats when you actually feel stupid, and simply want to give yourself a tight slap, to hit you hard enough and hopefully, shock you awake?

Apparently, thats what I've been feeling for the past couple of days. Wait, or should I say weeks? But well oh well, what can we (or maybe I? ) expect, with a mundane life, monotonous lifestyle. Sucks. This all sucks big time.

At the same time, I'm expecting myself to bear and endure all these for a couple of months, expecting breakthroughs in between and expecting myself to perform better, physically and emotionally. Am I pushing myself too hard?- NO. but rather, this would act as a challenge, for me to fighter greater difficulties in the future, hopefully.

Wish me luck peeps, and happy sexy weekends to all!

Toodles

Kristen.

-Like any other bimbo, bitching away on every single thing in her life...

Was browsing through some photos taken back in school with the whole big gang. I could picture us fooling around our lecturer's back. Dozing off in class, chatting online, talking on the line, crashing class, the small little " concerts" when the guys starts their guitar strumming and singing.

Gosh I miss school terribly. DMCD1-0741A- the awesome class of mine. And I'm counting down to the day when I'll finally get my ass back in. I miss the muggin' for the exams, the mini breaks we had, the inter-classmates competition, the lecturers, the school mates, the classroom, everything.

These fond memories, will be etched in my mind, now and forever :B

Damn. Work's sucking the life outta me bit by bit. I'm losing control, losing my mind. It's slowly but surely gettin' into me. And I'd very much pray that the bond ends sooner, and I'll bid farewell to everyone in there.

Wish me luck, and for me to push on, fighting this battle, all alone.

Toodles

Kristen

There were times like this, I asked if you were fine, whether you are doing fine and if you are coping well. It's hard, but I'll just have to keep pushing myself on.

Removing my mind out of this small black box confining all my thoughts. I ought to take the chance and gain new experience. But yet, it's tough with this restraining me. I hope you're happy, so that it'll be easier for me to move on.

Well wishes
Kristen

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Here goes a little prayer, for myself and everyone else around me. :) (It's good to be nice, once in a while)

Dear O'Lord.

I pray for Your kindness, Your touch, Your strength, Your breath.

A little kindness in each and everyone of us, for us not to sin further, and to rise up and look upon you as our Saviour. For us to treat and be treated well.  Touch us more and bring us closer to you. To forsee a brighter future with Your love, Your Strenght, Your guidance. 

Lord walk us through all the tribulations we have in our lives, and remove all evilish thoughts in our minds. Clear our souls and walk us through our life, overcoming all fears with You around us.

Not forgetting, most importantly, Lord strengthen me and see me though this downturn in my life, overcoming all the fears and in, overcoming every tough deal I'm facing and for me to mould to a better person.

Walk me through, hand in hand, by Your grace... Amen

Kristen

On MC with lips crackin' like no others business, feverish, migraine. Damn. And I'm in the hall, alone with dad rotting my butts off. The maid has left us earlier this morning. Bade her farewell, and thanked her for the care, concern and patience the past 2 years. It must' ve been tough on her. ( I attempted to clean up the whole house earlier this morning and realised it is close to impossible!)

Frenzy night chilling out with pals these couple of days. Having being demoralised after the long queue calls that everyone has to clear.. and not forgetting the pressure we get from the upper level. Everything just suck big time.

That explains my ignorance to this blog of mine. As mentioned for too many a time, I' am overwhelmed by the amount of things to be finished and yet, suffering from the tight time limit that we're given. There were times I'd just feel like giving up, but the somewhere somehow, a part of me bugs me to carry on and finish this race. 6 more months it told me. Then I contradict and ask myself- can I still handle it this way?

I longed for times when I had a great sense of satisfaction when I finish some projects and get it done and over with. Teamwork and spirit-something that we sometimes have to learn and get, through the tough way. Nevertheless, it was fun still, despite the many setbacks we suffered throughout.

Many say I should start moving on, and try to source for other alternatives. But there's this something as I've said, keeps on urging me to stop and go with the flow. I tell myself this- I'm young, and should venture out. Now, the thing is-Should I?

At this point of time, in this current downturn. Not easy to get a change of job. Not necessarily I'd get something I want. But then again, I'd never know if I never try. Yea, maybe I should.
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Forgive me for the crap above. It's just a bimbo venting out her frustrations with a little bit of a hangover. Ciao!

Kristen

Start of the week, and I've got piles of work stacking up. Endless meetings and briefings,  deadlines to meet and projects to rush. Everyone seemed to be clamming on each other. Well I guess that the cruel fact of the workforce-when everyone slices each other's lives away. DARN.

Everyday, I waste time away meddling with work, work work and work. At times, I wished I'd be back to the past, enjoying my life away, spening my time with friends partying away... but we all ought to know.. good things never come by easy, and no.. they never last.

Just like how I feel back in those days, the disastrous, wavey relationships I've engaged myself in. Sad to say, none worked out. And I've picked up my mistakes. Never to fall for a guy easily. Apologies to those whom may feel hurt by this post. This is not meant to hurt anyone, including myself. but I just don't wish to place us all in a difficult position.

Love takes time to cultivate. Nothing can pop up just like that overnight.I thank those who once stepped in, and left a footprint on my heart. Yes, there were scars (deep/slight) here and there. We liked, loved, hated, hurt. I'll still be reminiscing the good old days we used to have, but at the same time, let the hurt seep in a little, to jolt myself awake and alert myself from making the same mistakes again.

And to whom this may concern,

I thank you for the love and care. But I hope we'd all take things slowly. Things don't happen overnight. And neither do I want to committ another huge mistake in my life. Let's just move on from here..All the best in yor future endeavours, wherever you may be.

Deepest appreciation

Kristen

Tribulations, worries, troubles, problems.. it seemed to be piling up on a daily basis.. Now, where and what is the solution?

Crying, weeping, fussing, groaning, moaning, grumbling, complaining doesn't work afterall. What's the next step we should do?

I've tried to save your damn ass loads of time, and have given you lots of chances. But apparently, this doesn seem to work out as what I'd thought it out to be. Time and again, I kept my fingers crossed, praying with all my heart for you to change for the better. But this time round, it seemed to be getting worst.

I'm losing my cool. I'm letting it all out of me. Not because I want to, but I wasn't given any alternative either. You've driven me up the wall, and I've given up hope in you useless ass.

My hopes are dashed. My dreams ruined. All because of you. Get this clear- FUCK YOU.

Gambling sucks.

Sentoa with Ivan. Underwater world, Dolphin lagoon with a bit of tanning at the beach (not so much tho) Haha.. Here goes the lovely peektures.

 


Oh look at those lovely sea babies.. the cute little dolphins. Makes me so want to take my scuba diving license!!! Okay.. maybe I shall just go and re-arrange my schedule. And get myself a slot in it.

Up next, bintan trip next or the following month with this asshole Ivan. God knows what will happen, prolly we'll decide to turn barbaric and fight each other's lives away. Gosh.. seriously, I can't imagine.

OKay, enough of these.. Gotta get ready, to go maid-interviewing with the dowager. Ciao!

Kristen